I'm at Episode 8 of Beethoven Virus now.

AND IM IN LOVE WITH JANG GEUN SUK!
The way he smiles, especially at this scene:



And he's also a genius :D

The year is coming to an end and I know I have to start thinking about next year. It'll be a difficult decision. And I don't even want to make any. Why can't I have the best of both worlds? Why must I make a choice? Last time, I used to ignore everything else. I thought that as long as I was doing something i really loved, I will not regret my decision, even if that meant I didnt get good grades. Was that being naive? Well, not that I regretted. But I've come to realise how realistic this world is. Grades seem to be everything. Its like a price tag that sticks with you. So what should I choose this time? Common sense tells me that I shouldn't make the same mistake again. Wait, was it even a mistake in the first place? Guess I'll never find the answer to that, because I'm afraid I'll get an answer I don't want.

Why do we meet with so many obstacles and sufferings? Is it because it's retribution? Or so that we'll remember the feeling of goodness? Or because God wants us to learn how to let go, how to do our best and let him do the rest?

We need to let go when it's time to. It's a form of liberation, not a sign of weakness or being timid. I hope this matter will really be over soon. It takes time I know. Actually, till now I'm still not sure if this is the outcome I want.

Yesterday was All Souls Day. I couldn't help but to think of issues regarding death and eternal life. Even after we die, our souls will still exist. Life is just a transition state. Just like the different states of water. When we leave our human body, we'll be like vapour. Though invisible, we still exist. Haha I have a stupid thought now: condensation can take place and we'll be visible again! Haha! Is that resurrection?


You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all